hello blog!

It has been some time since i last wrote in here. Been quite busy with everything. First, kak fathy resigned and all fet unikl students become my students. So, all 126 of them with different characters. For the record, 126 lower forms students are not the same as 126 almost-adults students. For the kids (lower forms), you can treat them as a whole. But for teenagers (17-19 years old), you have to treat them as individuals. I need to give attention to each of them. It's not that i don't do the same for the kids ( i prefer to call them kids although there are actually aged 13-15), it's just... not the same. For example, the kids are easier to 'tame' and train. You can scold them and they know that they have to take it. But these teenagers, you can't just scold them cause they'll be angrier than you. Rebel. That's the word.

And last nite, two of my ex-students in Gerik called. I guess they really need to share this information with me as they called at 11.15 pm. They should be in their dorms at that time. They told me that many Class F (E-Buddies) students managed to get into Class E (which is better than Class F). Some of them are the leaders of their group members. When I first hear it, I felt nothing. But as i digested it today, i felt proud of themselves. Those kids, really, i hope they do well in PMR. I might be quite harsh on them, not letting to relax most of the time. Giving them all the exercises. But i guess that's what they need. Some one to push them over the limit. So, I express my greatest gratitude to Allah S.W.T for what He has given to me and my students. Alhamdulillah.

new house

So, yesterday we moved into our new house in KMK. It's an old house but once we settled in, we are quite happy with it. My husband and I (and my sis) think that the place wouldn't be 'that bad' when we paint it with new colors. However, i'll have to wait for next year's budget to ask for all these. Have to be patient since we're dealing with other people.

My husband called just now and from the voice, he sounded happy. Maybe because of the news he has for me (Aqil's stock of milks have arrived) or maybe because he is not so tired this morning. Now that he doesn't have to send me off to work, he should be happier. Should be!

As for Aqil, we've tried other formula milk on the market. Tried Isomil. End up with him vomiting from night till morning and 'uk uk cair' for three times. It's like the stomach is rejecting the milk. So, it's kinda confirmed that my son can't consume ordinary formula milk because he can't tolerate 'something' from the milk. Probably the protein. Nevermind. We're already grateful with whatever Allah has given to us.

And to my sisters (including my cousin), I am so thankful that you guys are there for me, sayang sangat kat you all. Because of you all, Aqil is so happy, crawling here and there. the place is no longer dirty and messy because of you. No words can express my feeling here. Cheerios guys! Love you all!

Myvi

I got my Myvi last week. It's MINE but the down-payment came from my parents as well as the monthly payment (or at least until Aqil is allowed to consume formula milk in the market). I am happy to have a car of my own but I am SO AFRAID to drive. Before i start driving, i need to drive away this anxiety feeling i have lah. I really have mixed feeling right now. I pity my darling for having to send me to work, go to his office, pick me up, go back to his office. He is so spent. But, I am afraid to drive the car. I really need to do something about this. Really.

As for Aqil, our appointment with his doctor went well. Aqil's weight was 7.6kg, length 69.6cm. The best part about the appointment is that Aqil is allowed to consume 'ordinary' formula milk, soy based of course. But only in a small quantity, like 1 scoop for 3 oz, every three days. Aqil is getting more active and he crawls here and there. I am so grateful with whatever Allah has given to me. Alhamdulillah. All the 'tests' that He has put on me has made my iman stronger and I myself have become a stronger if not better person.

I miss you

Today, after 1.20pm, we (English Dept) went out for lunch at Secret Recipe in Penang. To tell the truth, i don't really like the food there. I mean, there's not one that really makes me 'teringat-ingat sampai tido'. Really.

However, the gathering is FUN. Alhamdulillah, I am glad that I decided to join the lunch. I really want to join because being married means you can't go out to that kind of places often. It reminds me of my 'bujang' days where me and my friends would go out to McDonalds, Dunkin' Donuts, etc just to have a chat. We would laugh, make jokes, gossip and so on. It was fun and I kinda miss it. Maybe I should discuss with my hubby about this feeling I have. Actually, he is quite understanding because he allows me to join this gathering. I should thank him. So, Thank you Yang.

And all this remind me of all my friends. Nenny, Mc La, Mc ja, Wawa, Nina, Jeghing (how is she coping with her 'new' life?), Albi, Imah, Shima, Kak Noor (I almost forgot her name! I can't believe it! She is a dear friend of mine)...dan ramai lagi.. Okay, so, after this, i'm going to sms them all and tell them how much I miss them! Huwaaaaaa... this is soooo sad! So, I'm going to top up my hp and sms and call them. Wawa had delivered her second baby and i haven't congratulate her yet! I am so selfish! I am so selfish of not being caring when she actually made an effort to come to see Aqil. Yup, I'm going to top up and call up my friends tonight. Must do it.

How is imah doing? She must have sms'ed me but to my old number. What about farah? What about mahadi and ayi? I need to do something about this. Really. I need to gather all their information and create a blog for all of us. Ok. That is my resolution. Year end resolution. Heh.

Ok?

It's my second day, and i already expect it to be perfect.

C'mon! You need time. Don't compare your blog with others that perhaps have been in the 'town' for a few years. Chill.
For example, you are still trying to find the right font, the right colours, the right template, bla, bla.. the list goes on and on.
Ok?

Bridget (1)

See? In a few hours blogging, i've posted four entries (including this one). Looks like i have so many things in my mind that i want to write it out. It's like i want to see what's in my mind. This is not healthy. Not healthy. Not healthy.

Anyway, it just occurs to me that i need to read a book. Because... when people ask me what book i'm sinking my head into right now, i have an answer to it.."Well, i've been reading this book..bla..bla..bla..".. No, not healthy. not healthy. Not healthy. Always remind yourself not to do things for the sake of other people (exception to families and other people that i approve worth my sacrifice) or do things just to impress people. Okay, let me just set it straight again..

Anyway, it just occurs to me that i need to read a book. Because... when i read a book, or books, i can improve my English, add new vocab, learn new things, learn about other people ideas and so many positive things. Furthermore, if you read a book of your interest, it's like you're enjoying yourself, having a vacation of your own, dwell into your own thoughts, bla.. bla.. bla.. But, you need to find a book that interests you. That's difficult cause i'm no longer Judith Mcnaught's fan ( THAT MEANS, I NO LONGER WISH TO READ A NOVEL WITH INDECENT PLOTS.... but, if the books are in front of me, and for the sake of curiosity, why not?) and i also don't have time to shop for books. Abe Ngah did suggest 'The Da Vinci Code'. But, but.... maybe i should give it a try. Maybe. At least the book is already there for me to read ( i don't have buy a book? Fuhhh..).

Now i remember. The last real book/novel that i read was 'Bridget Jones's Diary'. Well, there's a reason behind it. i decided to buy the book (that was in 2003, i guess) because i felt that i was sooo much like Bridget. No boyfriend. Lonely. Just waiting for the right guy to come and swept me off my feet. Yes, i loved to think that I am so much like Bridget. It was all in my head. So, whenever i was in the LRT, i would read the book. But, being me who couldn't wait to know the ending, i skipped several (several? Ha!ha!) pages and peeped at the ending. "Okay! I'm done with this one! Who wants to borrow my 'Bridget Jones Diary'? Anyone? Anyone?". So, the book was passed around my friends and till now, i don't know its 'whereabout'. Sad. Really. I do love that book. Really.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah. Today's lunch:

daging goreng kunyit for 4 ppl 1.20
ikan jaket besar 1.80
sayur lemak for 4 ppl 1.00
tempe sambal 0.40 (only for me, so not counted)
so, today's lunch for 4 ppl costs me only RM4.00. Which means, only RM1.00 perhead.
You people out there must be wondering which planet I am in right now, right?
All that i can say is... Alhamdulillah..

p/s: for the tempe part..... really, really can't resist the temptation, man!